dream on.

Last night, after what felt like 15 minutes of sleep, I was jolted awake from a terrifying nightmare.  From what I can recall, I was running away in slow motion trying to escape a deer that was relentlessly chasing me.  Someone was in front of me, running further and further away, trying to escape as well.  Although the deer was moving slowly, I couldn't seem to move fast enough to get away.  Suddenly, it opened its mouth, and bit my left arm.  Simultaneously, I jerked my arm and hit the extra pillow I have set against my window on my left side, and woke up in the process.  The feeling of the pillow following on my arm, coupled with the image of a deer biting my arm, caused me to gasp in terror or surprise (or both?) and my eyes shot open.  

Surprisingly, I was able to fall back asleep relatively quickly and easily, and all was well.  

I need to start writing down more of my dreams. What the hell is going on in my mind

release.

If my life were charted on a line graph, I feel like the past few months would be represented by an exponential slope of growth.  I make the comment, "we're getting old", pretty much once every other day-- hearing about the events going on in my friends' lives gives a clear indication that things are definitely changing.  Most importantly to me though, is I have finally begun to understand and accept myself more and more.  I am beginning to see what I value the most, where my reactions come from, what I need to work on, etc.  The thing that I haven't figured out yet: my future.

Never before in my life have I had such an opportunity to freely choose where I want to take myself.  I can do anything, go anywhere.  It's a scary and exciting thought.  And a decision that I probably won't make for awhile.