nothing to lose.

It's a week before graduation and I have yet to cry. I know the tears are in me, building up and waiting for the most inopportune moment to come cascading out of my eyes-- but the trigger has not presented itself yet. I don't really know what I'm going to miss most about college. It pains me just to think about it though.

I'm excited. Ready to move on. I want to embrace change. But I cannot process such a huge change so soon.

I'm scared.

In other thoughts, I can't decide whether or not I am lying to myself or maybe my heart really does not have the ability to feel romantic anymore. emo, much?